A Less Than ‘Harmonious’ Monday

 Today tested me.

I woke up later than I would have liked (don’t worry, my alarm is set now for tomorrow) and dropped S off at her grandmas. 

In our Monday morning meeting we learned that the switch to one Salesforce instance had proven to be what we all assumed: an absolute fucking nightmare. None of our opps were accessible to AEs and my normal every day “let’s make money” motivation circled down the drain. Then, another emergency meeting and we were questioned by our manager as to why a certain AE (who happens to be my dear friend) was getting more opps than others. HR was involved and investigating.

Needless to say, I smoked. Needless to say - I thought about drinking. A lot. But now it is 9:44 PM, S is soundly asleep, and I realize that I am more satisfied listening to an audiobook and eating dinner in my warm bed. As opposed to downing cans of spiked seltzer and chainsmoking in the cold night. 

I’ve washed my face, wrote in my planner, now self-reflection before a good book. Grateful.